I grew up going to church and singing in a group with my family. At age 7 during vacation Bible school, I gave my heart to Jesus without fully understanding what it meant to follow Christ. I was taught how to love, make good choices, the right choices.
But at 18, I made very wrong choices. I knew how to run my own life and I didn’t need anyone telling me what to do. At college, I stopped going to church and started hanging out with the wrong crowd. I made new friends, met new guys who were wrong for me. Friends and guys who told me lies and made me feel worthy of their love through friendships and dating. They made me forget about God.
At 24, I married one of the wrong friends. He said all the great things in the beginning and then he stopped. All of a sudden, I felt unworthy, afraid, unloved, ugly. I began to question who I was and I felt like he owned me. Nowhere to go and no way out! After 7 years of torment and distrust, it was over.
I begged Jesus to come back into my life! He set me FREE! I am Redeemed! Praise God! I had to be brave enough to walk away from that abuse with two kids and become a single mom. I had to be brave enough to move forward and to start living again fully trusting God. God and I have walked together ever since. No, it has not been easy. God never said it would, but he is always there.
God makes me feel worthy, loved, secure, brave and FREE. He has forgiven me and I have forgiven my ex-husband. I have also forgiven myself of the bad choices I have made. I am set free from it all because I have chosen to let go and let God lead me. I am set free because I have chosen to surrender everything to him. I am set free because I know I have no worries, just peace that passes all understanding. I know who I am and God tells me I’m beautiful and that I belong to him. He loves me and has great plans for my life.
I went back to college at 32 and became a Teacher. I teach Pre-K students at school. I teach kids at church and at the YMCA in the summer. Recently, God gave the words to write a children’s book. It’s called, “You Are Wonderfully and Beautifully Made”. It is about being who you are where you are, to know your worth, how to guard your heart and how to be brave enough to trust him and let him lead you to greater things. I write blogs to adults and books to children. If I hadn’t chosen God, there is no telling where I would be. I definitely would not be doing what I am today: Teacher, Author, Speaker, Mom and Grandma (Lala).
Thank you, God for my life! I live it for you!
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.