The Journey

I realized this every year about this time, but never fully accept it because of high expectations of myself and my students. I struggle, sweat, push, worry, cry, lose sleep, over-work myself into some crazy person to make sure my students are ready for 2nd grade. 
I saw inside the journey today and was pleased and proud as students read to other students and had a discussion about the Main Idea! When students struggling to read all year, sounded out words and read books they’ve never read before.
What a proud moment! A Teacher, yes! But more than that, their other mother, supporter, cheerleader, pastor, doctor, dentist, psychologist, hair dresser, etc. ME!
Though I may never see their full success. I know that I walked this journey with them and I gave it my all! To my students: I love you and I love being your Teacher!

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You Are Wonderfully and Beautifully Made by Lola Brooks.
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Nightmares in my Eyeballs by Lola Brooks
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Silent Heartbreak

Poem by Lola Brooks

Too quiet to speak,

No words can express the pain.

There’s no one to tell,

you were my one,

Now I’ve lost you.

I did the wrong thing,

I said something wrong.

I’d take it back,

but it’s too late.

I carry the silence within,

no one knows me like you.

There’s no one to share it with,

you won’t talk to me and

I can’t make it go away.

5am VS. 6am

Many successful people wake up early to start their day, including myself.  I get up early to go workout at the gym. It has become an addiction and something I look forward to.  It is also something I miss when I can’t or don’t.

This past week, I woke up at 4:30am to get to the gym at 5:00am for my workout.  I got into my daughter’s car (because she parks behind me in our driveway) and it wouldn’t start.  Bummer! I couldn’t go to the gym. I went back inside and went back to bed for another hour.

I got up and started my regular routine of coffee and devotion.  I got ready for work and went outside to jump her car with my other daughter’s car, so we could all go to work.  All day I was tired and had no energy, even though I drank the same amount of coffee, did the same school activities, and ate the same meals.  When I got home, I decided to go to bed early, like an hour early than I normally would.

The next day, I woke up at 4:30am to go to the gym.  I worked out and became so energized by the adrenaline, I felt great!  I went home and began my regular morning routine. I had my normal amount of coffee, did the same school activities and ate the same meals.  I was a bouncing, energetic, force of nature walking into the school that morning and I was the same when I walked out of the school to go home.

It was like night and day for me those two days.  I could tell a difference. I have been getting up at 4:30am for 6 months.  It is a part of me and my routine. I cannot function without having that in the morning. And that is without coffee! Yeah, I said, “without coffee”. (for those who know me well)  I felt successful, fueled up, ready to take on the world and my students.

I have learned alot from this obedience and consistency. (1)You have to know yourself and be honest, either you can do it or you can’t.   (2)You have stick with it long enough to become a habit or a have-to. (3)You have to decide what to do, if you can’t do it that day. Maybe make it up in the afternoon or not at all.  But don’t beat yourself up about it. You are allowed to be human. (4) Become your own cheerleader. Not everyone is on your side and may think your crazy or talk you out of it. But you know you and you know what is best for you.

It works for me and maybe it could for you!  I feel my best and do my best when I get up earlier to start my day.  I also go to bed earlier and get all my beauty sleep and it shows. To be your best self is to decide what’s important for you and to you. Happy Searching!  By the way, It’s my bedtime (9:00pm), so my alarm says. Goodnight!

Love Sucks

There is no way around it.  It just does. Not all the time, but just today in my Teacher life!

I love my kids each year with all my heart.  I give and give and give and give so much of myself to them each day.  I have high expectations for them such as following the rules, being respectful, getting along with others.  Most days they get it. But today, they didn’t. And I felt defeated and unloved and done.

When school was over, I went to find my best friend and get a hug. We talked and prayed and thought of strategies to change their bad behaviors.  I went home drank a chai latte, strong coffee and ate chocolate chips. I began to write my bible lesson for Friday’s Bible Club at school. It’s on the Love Chapter:  1 Corinthians 13:4-7. And I decided to be honest in my blog. Usually for Valentine’s Day, I will write something encouraging and lovely. But this year, this just seemed fitting.  

Worldly Love isn’t always lovely.  It isn’t always joyous. It isn’t always kind.  It is mean and rude. It is sad and relentless. It is disappointing and cruel.  It is of the world, not of God.

God’s Love is very patient and kind, never jealous or envious, never boastful or proud, 5 never haughty or selfish or rude. Love does not demand its own way. It is not irritable or touchy. It does not hold grudges and will hardly even notice when others do it wrong. 6 It is never glad about injustice, but rejoices whenever truth wins out. 7 If you love someone, you will be loyal to him no matter what the cost. You will always believe in him, always expect the best of him, and always stand your ground in defending him. (The Living Bible)

I strive to be like Him, but I always fall short as we all do.  We are not perfect like God, so there is no way we could ever love like God.  We should always strive to do so, though. We shouldn’t give up just because one day sucks or we feel we failed.

I realize that I just gave myself a pep talk and advice.  Which happens a lot, by the way. Sometimes I’m my only cheerleader. I know that I will go back to school tomorrow and love on my kids and many days after that.  I know tomorrow will be different as are all the other days to come. Days will turn into months and months into years and a different crowd of kids will be raised and loved by an awesome Teacher.

But today,.today………….. Love Sucks!

Weight Loss is Hard!

Weight loss is hard!  It just is. There is no easy way to lose weight.  Don’t let anyone tell you it is. I have been training for 6 months.  Yeah, I call it training because I am training my body to adapt to a new healthy lifestyle and it needs to be trained to do that.  

My training consists of meal planning (Keto, Low Carb,Clean eating),  Intermittent Fasting and lots and lots of water. I have meal plans using real food.  Also, working out (treadmill and weights). I am lifting a greater amount of weight here lately and it makes me feel real awesome. I have fallen in shame, been lazy, cheated, but never once gave up.  I rely on consistency and accountability. I have a team who supports me and keeps me going. Their friendship, banter and truth serums keep me in line and laughing.

I have lost more inches than weight.  But I have gained muscle and experience.  I push myself, talk to myself and continue to see the best in me.  DFIT is the way to go if you are not sure you can do it on your own, need a true assessment of your weight loss problem and need to be held accountable.  I did!

I am truly grateful to my trainers for assuming the responsibility of changing my non-healthy lifestyle in the a healthy one.  The hard work has been on their part. Thank goodness they are patient. I’m a handful! You need them and they can help you. Check them out at:  www.dfittransformation.com and take the assessment.  They are truly miracle workers!

*The picture above is 1 year apart, but only 6 months DFIT!