Joyfully Heartbroken

Sitting at the bedside of my mom at her last moments of life, reminiscing with my sisters.  Telling sweet, funny, sad memories of times we spent together.  Knowing that my parent’s homegoings (1 year apart) were pure joy in God’s Presence. No more pain, sadness, worry, tears, or struggles.  Just a heavenly reunion with Jesus, family and friends who’ve gone before them. And knowing mine will be the same.  I can’t wait to see you both again!  I LOVE you Mom and Dad!

A One of a Kind Relationship

I am so thankful for my relationship with Jesus! He knows exactly what I need, when I need it and who I need. When my days get too busy, He still loves me and pursues me. When I’m tired, He comforts me and soothes me. His word speaks life to me and gives me tremendous peace and comfort, strength and courage. He loves me this I know, forever and always. I am not afraid or worried of the future because He is my refuge and no weapon formed against me shall prosper. I am His and He is mine! These scripture brought me peace and joy today. Maybe they will you too!

Matthew 6:34 – Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
2 Corinthians 12:9 – But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
Psalm 62:8 – Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.

Healthy Living

Healthy living is a daily decision. Only YOU can choose what you’re going to do. It’s hard, but not impossible! 2 years with DFIT!

Working on my body these past 2 years have changed over this journey with DFIT. It started with losing weight and now strength training with a healthy meal plan. I learned my body can take whatever I do it, whether healthy or not healthy. But I will choose healthy every time!

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So Worth It!

Am I Wrong?

If I’m wrong about God, what did I lose? Nothing! But what if I’m right? What did you lose? ETERNITY!

Dear Jesus, I accept you as my Savior, I believe you died on the cross for my sins, I Confess my sins and ask you to forgive me and come into my heart forever! I love you! Thank you for saving me and taking me to Heaven to be with you one day! Amen!

Am I Enough?

This is a question I ask myself daily, sometimes hourly.  Beating myself up for believing that I am, when I know I am.  I’m God’s girl!  His masterpiece!  His princess! So why do I question that?

The Enemy!  He comes to kill, steal and destroy. He knows my weaknesses and he plays on those.  I ask God:  “Am I pretty enough?”  He answers, “YES, Everything I create is beautiful!”  Then doubt creeps in:  Then why am I still single!  Nobody sees me as beautiful.  Nobody wants me.  Nobody cares about me.  Nobody wants to get to know me. Enemy says, Now, I’ve  got her!   God says, “You are mine!  You are the most beautiful thing in the world to me!”  Doubt: You’re only beautiful inside and no one can see that.  If they never talk to you, they will never know.  It’s hopeless!  Enemy says, Yes, keep believing that!  God says, “I’m saving you for the one who will truly understand my purpose in your life and can build with you, not take from you.  Trust Me!”

Being enough for whatever life hands you or situation you’re in requires you to STOP believing the enemy’s LIES!  You have to OVERCOME Lies with TRUTH!  This is hard and requires work on your part.  Your hard work isn’t to prove to other people that you are enough.  It is to prove to yourself that you believe what God says about you! You are created in the image of God and YOU ARE ENOUGH.  Sitting and complaining about your life and what you don’t have or look like or who is better or has more than you, isn’t working hard.  It is YOU believing the enemies lies about who he says you are and NOT who God says YOU are!  

I have to remind myself that God has great plans for me.  He knows me because He created me.  He listens to my complaints, failures, mistakes, tears, troubles, excuses, stumbles, falling downs.  But quickly I am reminded that He loves me and IS FOR ME!  He lets me question my doubt, but quickly brings to mind how strong He is in my weakness.  How strong He is in my struggle, in my failures, in my mistakes, in my excuses, in my daily grind.  He adjusts my thinking with his word (Bible) and the TRUTH sets me FREE!  

I work hard to accomplish my goals and his purpose in my life. Living up to God’s standards is easy compared to the standards I place on myself.  His yoke is easy and His burden is light.  I carry the world on my shoulders, He only carries me.  Lauren Daigle’s song,  “You Say” is a powerful song that reminds me of how I should see myself. But unless I commit to listen to it every hour of the day, the enemy creeps in to remind me of my weaknesses.  This is why I need to recognize his creepin’ and quickly remind myself that I AM GOD’S GIRL!  I AM BEAUTIFUL!  I AM ENOUGH.

I don’t have to be enough for the world.  I don’t have to PROVE I am enough to the world.  I AM ENOUGH because I AM HERE, STILL HERE!  I have PURPOSE, GOD’S PURPOSE!  


Relationship Advice

Relationships are hard! Sometimes they don’t last and it hurts. Here’s my advice:
You take time heal. You keep busy building the life you’ve always wanted. You don’t settle for less than you deserve no matter how long it takes. You make a difference and let God use you in your singleness. You believe in love because it does exist and one day without looking, without knowing it will happen with the one your soul desires.

One Voice

Driving home today after visiting my mom, I had a cop behind me. It didn’t really bother me, but I did check to make sure I was not over the speed limit.  The car in front of me was driven by a black man.  I started to think about how he would feel if the cop was behind him.  Being white, I can’t ever say I would know.  But I wanted to.  I wanted to because I need to feel the pain to change, to stand up, to make a difference, to be a voice.

I thought about how it must feel to be rejected, not worthy, not believed, harassed and unloved by people who are just like you, Humans. Horrible, it would feel horrible. I would never leave my house.   I thought about how all my life, no one ever questioned me or stopped me, or didn’t believe me or thought I was worthless. As an educator, I do my very best to treat people how I want to be treated and teach my littles that.  I stand with #blacklivesmatter and will work for a change.

DFIT Forever!

I support DFIT because I am living-proof that it doesn’t matter what age, fitness level, food hoarder or frame of mind you’re in, they work with everybody! lol

DFIT is a way of life.  It’s fitness, meal planning, building a productive environment and therapy. Best of all,  it’s Virtual!  It helps you to stop, think, plan and focus on what’s important in your life.  Demetrius and Andrea work with your environment, your body, your food and your mind.  They partner with you.  You are not on your own.  They are available to you with answers to your questions, comments, complaints and encouragement.

I support DFIT because I am living-proof that it doesn’t matter what age, fitness level, food hoarder or frame of mind you’re in, they work with everybody! lol    I am pleased with my progress and will continue to work hard to maintain the lifestyle that I am accustomed to right now.  I’ve come a long way, baby!

If you’re looking to maintain your life or change your life, it can only be done with commitment AND discipline.  We live in a world where we don’t know what can happen day to day.  Why let fear of the unknown keep you from making a better life for yourself.  I’m not talking about money or material things, I’m talking about life.  The life you wish to live for a long time by taking care of yourself, building your immune system and being at peace.

The systems they create are just for you, are about you and no one else and they change as you change.   Be encouraged! Two years I’ve been with DFIT and virtual.  For 1 year I’ve been working out at home. It’s hard to see success up close, but from a distance,  it’s visible and attainable.  I believe in you! Now believe in yourself!💖 We got this!